Back from spring break...

No particularly interesting stuff on Mr. Sexy. This morning when i walked by he did the same looking ahead thing like he's not interested at all whatsoever. 

Riiiiight.(My ass)

Aaaaanyways i'm definitely gonna have to start doing the whole looking back after having walked past him because if he did it once he probably does it often if not all the time  I'm such an idiot. I know the reason he's not looking anymore; It's because I've caught him looking at me. Several times. He doesn't wanna seem like a creep. 

 I knew he was looking all those times; i didn't need to look at him now i'll never catch him again.
 Which is a shame because he looked soooo freaking cute when he was all nervous and jittery and acting like he wasn't looking when i know good and well he was.
I understand he would feel creepy shamelessly staring at a 15 yr old but shit i mean...shit.
You know?
 I know it's wrong but just the thought of him turns me on.
All i  have to do is think about his white man swag and  i feel really, really horny It's not even swag It's . more like I'm white and hot and i don't have to act like a thug or prove shit to nobody.
I dunno.
No offense but black guys have this kinda downtrodden, woe is me, the worlds screwed me over sort of attitude that is not sexy at all.
 I mean come om what is sexy about being hunched over sad with your hood up and your pants down and listening to rap music.
 I mean someone like him really gets me hot. Like walking with exceptional posture, chin up sexy beard and piercing blue eyes... mmm... fuck yes.
 It should like a crime to be that hot.

Like nobody should be allowed to work around a bunch of horny teenage girls and be that damn hot.
It's torture considering he's completely out of bounds and no exception.

Selfish really.

I mean isn't that what they teach you in school?; if you don't have enough candy for everyone don't bring it all?

 The same applies here: if you don't have enough sexiness to go around or you are just not willing to share, then leave it at home!

It's not fair for him to stare at me making it quite clear that he wants my young, supple body. 

It's not fair for him to make me so horny knowing good and well that can never happen.

Anyways it not like I'm some silly teenager deluding myself into thinking that he wants a relationship with a teenage girl but it's still hard for Me to swallow.  

I mean I know that deep down underneath all that sexy masculinity he's just a dirty old man who wants to fuck.

And is it bad that the thought makes me really horny?

I mean  I need to be honest with myself: on the off chance that he is slightly interested in me he's probably just thinking: Damn! I need to get me some of that! 

It's so hard to believe that a MAN as sexy as himself would want to screw me. I'm not sure if he does y'all tell me what y'all think.

Anyways. My first instinct is that he wants to do me.

Hard. 

Which is very unsettling. 

If my instincts are correct and he does in fact, want to screw my brains out then that's freaky! 

He's big compared to my small form and he could really hurt me in the throes of passion(lol.thats a little much I think)

I mean if he was on on top of me and his judgement was impaired by his lust, I could get fucked up (pun intended)

Comments, Questions, Snide Remarks always welcome

Bye :)